Getting Mother’s Blessing

To my mother, …” I had kept my sadness as I was far away in London. Until now. I had deleted all my demand from you since a long time ago. I had survived this life mostly without you. I know I was the last, but I understand that I am the most in your heart. In fact I felt so relieved Mak..that you were transferred peacefully. I as the youngest and I who knows so much of your trouble, I am sorry for you. You are being loved by Abah, your faith, you were given a good moment to rest just before you depart. You are now with Abah in his beautiful heaven. a place that I have told you about as I met him in that special moment. I felt so great Mak, and honored that I had done my part and returned back home during my important business dealings overseas, even I knew that it was an important moment to earn a living and income for my children. I had chose you. I am proud that we managed to read the complete syahadah  together, you were so strong and full, loud, shouted to your God and his Prophet. Those were the last syahadah Mak. We had our last read together, I the imam and you the makmum, as you were lying in the bed – Watching me praying by your side…I am still here Mak, looking after the children with me, without their mother, and I will be there and just wait for me Mak..”

Maybe that was the last read jammaah for her. It was the 3rd time we had prayed together somehow, in our entire life.

 Thank you MAK. on this Mother’s Day 2008. I LOVE YOU.

..MAK, I am sorry. I have to tell the world..I LOVE YOU MAK.

 

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